Im so confused and torn between getting an abortion or keeping the baby. All Ive ever wanted is to me a mom. I dont want to do this, but the dad is not ready and I am not able to care for a child alone at this point. I hope everything will be okay. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. Surfing helps, but I know the best thing for healing is time. I know he has to process this but Im in agony and dont want to make a choice based on what he wants. Then I found out I was pregnant! I know thats the right decision but I cant stop crying or thinking about baby . Dont worry though youre not pregnant!. And I was supposedly either unable to conceive or it would be extremely difficult. it didnt take him long to move past but its something I struggle with frequently in the form of nightmares and guilt. I dont know where to go or what to research for. As you can imagine, childhood and progression through young adulthood is very hard for foster children because most of our supports disappear once we turn 18 or so and are no longer eligible for the child welfare systems services. I was wondering how you are feeling. Feel so alone and feel like I will never get over this. Ive just got an amazing job that I cant afford to give up, I suffered badly with my mental health the first time round. I dont want to lose you. The dad is eh. The way you wrote it felt so close to home for me and i just wanted to say thank-you, thank-you, thank-you. I feel for you and very sorry for your loss. I just knew it was my girl I prayed for. My room mate and best friend had an abortion two days ago. She made the choice within a day, and now she is so upset and emotional and traumatised. Wishing all loving thoughts to you. How you still suffer over the very thought of it. Published Jul 29, 2015. She is with you in your dreams at least. He says if i get an abortion we must split that Hell respect my decision but we cannot continue together. This is just not exactly what I wanted for her and Im scared to lose my best friend in a sense because Im not quite ready to grow up that fast. Abortion pills are the most common way to end a pregnancy in the United States and have become a focus for anti-abortion groups and Republican officials seeking to block access in their states. I was so excited when I found out because I didnt even know if could have kids. I made the wrong choice. About Press Copyright Contact us Creators Advertise Developers Terms Privacy Policy & Safety How YouTube works Test new features Press Copyright Contact us Creators . Hi. Im doing my final major project in my fashion degree and want my final collection to be inspired by my experience. I wish you and your baby love and healthy lives your braver than I was I envy that, I had an abortion in April. Good luck with that husband. We want to give our child the best life possible, and now is not that time. It would have been too early to know the sex for sure but when I think of her I feel her and I know she was my baby girl your not alone, whatever you feel, your not alone. Baby. Like you, I was always so excited to become a Mom and I felt a sincere connection as soon as I found out I was pregnant. Children need attention so please think about if youre equipped to care for them on your own as a single parent. I open it and see two pictures of you. Would adoption be something you could manage? I told him and he messaged me every day saying to abort it. I always imagine what he or she would have looked like and I feel I failed my child. I wanted it to be beautiful and for us both to be so happy but the day I told him his first words were you have to abort it the way his face was was like I ripped his whole life from under him it wasnt a face of being scared to be a dad it was a face that only a person who had a secret would make I cant understand him because we clearly had a lot of sex that was unprotected how could we not feel like this would happen eventually I just dont understand at all he knows that I love him so he started to say things like Im selfish for wanting to bring a child into this world he doesnt want he grew up without a dad and I wouldnt understand, he said if I have this baby it will pull us further apart and he will never be able to look at me he said I was a liar because I have told him Im down for him and thats not being down for him. My daughter will be three next month and I just found out that Im pregnant. Best of luck xx, I had an abortion when I was too young to provide a child with the life it deserved. Sending love xx. I have a toddler and Im pregnant again. I know I made the right decision but Im feeling really bad and sad right now. She is a lover of writing, hiking, spending as much time outside as possible, and going to concerts. Norma McCorvey, the plaintiff in Roe v. Wade, never had the abortion she was seeking. The relationship was very toxic over all. Ruffalo opened up about his own mother's experience with having an abortion . Ive worked hard to get here and set myself into a schedule for still working, still being able to play with my daughter and somehow study. My significant other is leaving the decision to me and will support either way it goes but I just dont know what to do. Ever. , I think to myself. I hope that there wasnt a little soul in there yet . My little sister just found out she is pregnant and I am happy for her but I just cant help being sad that I didnt get to know my baby and see him/her grow and I may never get that chance again ( was told it wouldnt be easy to get pregnant to begin with) that baby could very well be my first and only. I swallow hard several times until the pill burrows into the back of my throat like a rock. Im praying that I get an opportunity to meet her one day .. look into her sweet little face and just hold her and never ever let her go. My husband was in prison, I cheated on him, got pregnant, he gave me the choice between keep my baby or our marriage. And make you scream and shout, Im in the beginning of my nursing school. My Unborn Love By I hope that helps you make the right decision for you. Im the same, my partner cant understand why it still or ever did sadden me, he says it was too early no heartbeat, for that reason he does not feel what I feel, I cry alone, still. I felt like death every day sometimes unable to stay out longer than 2 hours outside. It takes courage to share your story, especially with so much honesty. As opposed to most elective . I also didnt want to be a single mum of someone who did not want the child. Xx, I found out I was pregnant on this day a year ago and like you I was scared. I sit there like that until I hear the front door open and your dad walks in. From a mother's letter to her aborted child: "It's been a decade and still my blood runs cold and I catch my breath whenever I hear the word " abortion." Space there is an emptiness inside of me that can never be filled, a chill that has never quite been warned, a grief that will Continue reading "A Mother's Letter to Her Aborted Baby" You are making a decision that will affect not only your life but your boyfriend and your child if you choose to continue. They were in no particular order: I broke up with your dad and essentially kicked him out of our apartment. I dont want to undo my choice, but its still so hard to live with sometimes. Maybe you can relate with "Jess," a young woman who posted her abortion story in 2019 on the Shout Your Abortion website. I take his hand in mine and say, Everything thats happened the past few weeks doesnt matter anymore. It hurt because I was all alone in it,the thought of it break my heart into million pieces Ive prayed to God to forgive me but still I cant get over it. Floating in your tummy, feeling snug and warm. Hi. Your baby will always be with you, even if your boyfriend isnt. It resonates and although Im still very sad, makes me feel more peaceful. Walgreens confirmed on March 2 that it will not distribute abortion pills in numerous statesincluding to some states where abortion is legalafter Republican attorneys general (AG) in 21 states told the company that it risked breaking federal law should it do so, Politico first reported.. Walgreens, the second-largest pharmacy chain in the United States, made the decision after receiving . In a recent post on the Reddit forum TwoXChromosomes, an anonymous user shared her feelings about her upcoming abortion: Little Thing: I can feel you in there. He keeps trying to make me have the child and give my child full custody and I feel like he wants to rob me because I cant afford to have a child of my own. I miss my baby every minute of every day. I cry all the time and I dont think Ill ever stop. Its been 7 years since my abortion, and I miss her. I have seen many of my patients go through something similar and it is never easy. purchasing sperm from a donor, via a cryobank I cry. Yet, I have an appointment with my Dr on Monday. I love him he doesnt exactly feel the same, as per the way our relationship has gone these last few Years which caused it to end. I feel like I have to get the abortion or he will resent me and our relationship will be over. I told my husband minutes before we left to go camping. It is a very heartbreak-ling sad feeling. Well, I made it out alive. Abortion Poem Letter To Mommy From The Womb To be honest, I have always felt strongly against abortion. Just since December is when I noticed I wasnt having my normal periods. Also it will definitely be detrimental to my relationship with my husband. This is me right now,I dont know what to do its so hard. Last Wednesday we went for the abortion and it has been the hardest week physically and mentally for me. I dont understand how someone who has children already, can be so selfish and cold hearted. This resonates with me. Because we still didnt get married when our family asked us we use to say next year next year but now I dont think if its ever gone happen. I feel like I dont know what to do with myself. Took the first pill today to block the hormones. I have a three year old. No baby should be murdered by its mother. The film is based on a story called "A Letter from an Aborted Child," which had been used for nearly 10 years by Father Stephen Lesniewski to show women in a time of indecision. My younger half sister is also pregnant with a girl which I always thought I would have. Hesitantly I got the pill, I was just a day before 10 weeks, I held my baby and cried until I couldnt. But in reality I know who the dad was because of what had happened on the night we spent together but it did not help my decision as I felt so ashamed. I regret my decision every day. Sending love your way. But I want my baby so bad. And each month, when it decided to, my period came. The pain in my gut has not gone away. I dont want to let you go. I really can not explain how happy I am to know that you'll be my mom, another thing I also proud is to see the love with which I was conceived It seems that I will be the happiest kid! The emotions you displayed in this article made me cry because it is exactly how I feel. Oh mommy, I can't go on anymore help me 17 years have gone by since you made that fateful decision. I came from foster care and was 19 when I became pregnant. It haunts me every day . You can do more than you think you can. I had an abortion at 5 weeks 6 days, pill as well. Maybe you feel deep regret, maybe it was a confusing time, maybe you didn't care at all. Published by Family Friend Poems November 2008 with permission of the author. Ill be 43 when the child would be born. I couldnt relate more to this paragraph you wrote: Im stressed and feel so alone. Praying for you! In pregnancy, to be "late term" means to be past 41 weeks gestation, or past a patient's due date. How do I pick them? The baby daddy is crying too because we have a lot to achieve in life and this isnt what we expected. My pregnancy was miserable I was depressed and anxious all the time and often wondered if I made the right choice but the day my son was born I knew I made the right choice. I really dont! I dont know you but it seems to me that if you went through with it, it was 100% the right thing to do. I didnt go through with the abortion, I couldnt once seeing my baby but ever since deciding to keep my baby Im still. I pull out a second test with two pink lines, that I took while on the phone with my sister this time in the apartment, this time repeating different expletives. Get the Poem of the Day delivered right to your phone! I took the pill at 6 weeks. There are no other words. Always imagine what he or she will look like. My boyfriend and I decided it was best to have a surgical abortion( I personally recommend this over the pill as I did not want to experience actually passing the baby, bleeding and cramping for weeks possibly!) A part of me knows there are logistical & rational reasons why we should not have another & honestly those out number the reasons we should but yet I still want my baby. The worse I got the more my boyfriend managed to show up and take care of me. He doesnt know the end result, nor do I feel that he deserves to. My apt is tomo And I dont want to go. I hope she can forgive me. I dont have a strong conviction I can do this. It is simply not a choice anyone wants to make. I found out I was pregnant on September 23rd, 2 weeks before my 21st birthday. Anyway. Everything in life was so uncertain and I had nothing and had no idea where I was going and a part of me felt pressure from everyone else. We sleep in the same room that night, and the next day he drives me to work. I dont know if hes being dramatic or not but he thinks we will lose our home because we are barely making ends meet with one in daycare. I am sure I am going to be the You can always come back. I tell her, I cant. Im honest enough with myself to know that if I leave, I will never will come back. Thank you for your bravery! I take his hand in mine and say, Everything thats happened the past few weeks doesnt matter anymore. I feel like you put my experience and feelings into words. locating a private donor and/ or coparent online The article reappeared in 1980, and was turned into a song in 2005. . Rapid thoughts flooded my brain. The procedure is done by a licensed healthcare professional. These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. I was 17 yrs old when I got pregnant, At that age I was not ready, alot of expectations from my parents await me plus the fact that I got pregnant by the person I dont love.so Ive decided to abort it by means of massage. My boyfriend was completely supportive of me and even now when I talk about the baby he knows that it makes me feel better. Its nice to see other ladies have the same emotions and I know when the time is right my baby girl will come back to me (: This might be a bit forward and seem strange of me but I have been through this twice before so if you would like someone to talk to or any support you are welcome to contact me anytime x. I just had mine this afternoon. I have been scouring the internet for stories because keep either seeing people who wanted to do it and doesnt regret it, or people who regret it all together. I had not long been in a new job that I had wanted and worked hard for. Because o hate that its a decision. A month ago i started feeling sick and tired. I wanted an abortion but my boyfriend wanted us to keep the baby. All their comments are stressing me out and getting me really down. We use protection and still Ive ended up pregnant once more. I feel guilty because I strjuglle to show real excitement when I know others want to when they find out and I feel so false trying to bounce off their energy. Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world, I think to myself. And I like to think that only because they arent physically here doesnt mean Im not a mom. Today its been 1 year since the surgery. When parents choose to terminate a pregnancy because of severe medical conditions in the baby, the medical procedure is technically a second-trimester abortion or a "late-term" abortionand it is technically elective because parents can choose whether to let nature take its course or to end the pregnancy. I wish I could advise a podcast or supportive tv bit for her to watch. Wish I had a way to contact you personally. I really did not want to get rid of my baby and I knew that in my heart, but somehow logic (or what I thought sounded logical) overpowered my emotions. I just turned 21,everyone wants me to keep the baby and I want to be a mom but I dont at the same time. Wow I needed to read this. Weve been married about 10 years and I have children from my previous marriage that she loves as well but cant help being jealous of. Although I did it for health reasons I am still recovering. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. He is quite a bit older than me and has 2 kids of his own already. That's exactly what I need to do for you. I am 40 and my husband is not supportive and I feel so alone. I had a disease that I didnt know about that affected the baby because of my bloodstream. She was already the mom of a young girl and in an abusive relationship. Family assumes that I just dont want to have them, when in reality, now, is that no one will have one with me. I move into the mini-counseling session with your dad, and we are firm on our decision. I cant get the ultrasound picture or the thought of the potential of my baby out of my head. I had an abortion back in 1999. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. When I had my daughter, he unfortunately couldnt be there and I raised her on my own until she was about 6 years old. Im ready,but am I really ready? I can hardly keep up with what I have now in my life. In the end this is her choice and all I can do is support her to the best of my ability. I want my baby so much but my family are pushing for a termination as I should be having a child when the timing is right. Ive been sobbing and my drive home I kept apologizing outloud for what I had just done. Even if you have others support around you, it can so easily feel like youre going through it alone. This is the worst pain Ive ever felt and the most heartbroken and devastated Ive ever been. I cry also. Thank you for this I hope one day Ill find a way to be okay, I really feel stupid and sad Im pregnant and everyone doesnt support my relation ship.i now want to abort and sadly get over my man. I just had an abortion a couple days ago and I was 7 weeks. Considered his feelings but ultimately decided I wasnt going to to do it. I was 14 weeks with two boys already. If anyone has any advice, please send it my way. He just doesnt want another child, but what about me & what I want? And try my hardest at everything I do. And when that day comes, well both be ready. In my heart i know that baby would have deserved better, but is it ok to feel THat way? It would be my second but he has children from a previous marriage. Your state requires that one of your parents be told of your decision 48 hours before your abortion. After I check in, I have to take another urine test. When I started getting very nauseous all the time my Mom said I was definitely pregnant and we went to the gynecologist who gave me an ultrasound and said I was pregnant. Just a few days before my 22nd birthday. I dont know where Im going to go or how Im going to make this work but Im terrified. We are both unhappy . The technician asks me if I want pictures, and I say, I do. When she leaves to print them, I repeat the lyric from Gone and I cry more while holding my stomach. I am not in a relationship with the indivdual that I am pregnant with and nor do I want to be as it is a toxic relationship. I had a late term surgical abortion, against my will. I really care about him, but this all has put a serious strain on our relationship. I think Id end up more broken than ever. I want you to know, I understand. So at 26 years old, on April 10th, 2015, just as I had for months prior, I took a pregnancy test because I was eight days late. I miss my baby. Me too, yesterday I found out I was 8 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend also doesnt want to keep it. And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. If there is a heart beat I really dont feel I can abort but Im afraid the stress he will give me will cause me to miscarry anyway. So many people would love to give that little one a home. I long to feel the grass tickle my toes it really makes my decision i made 10 months ago seem like the right one. Xxx, We are all such incredible and compassionate women. We dont say any words, but our embraces tell each other that we did the right thing. Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. I think Ill visit an abortion clinic to avail of a medical abortion service because its difficult for me to survive if I have a child. Does anyone else feel similar? I took a test when i got home from work and sure enough i was. I was in a a similar position. I found out I was pregnant today after being a few days late on my period Im lost!!!!! This time is different. This moved me. I know you made the right decision for you! My husband and i split up a few months ago but have been seeing eachother on and off during that time. Were you touched by this poem? I love him I know I do but I also know he does not feel the same way for me. Yes, he did everything he was supposed to and yes the tests afterwards declared him sterile. Im broken over this. I promise that the next time I see that little blue plus, the next time you are in the same reality as me, I will be ready for you. Just found out im pregnant as of today 6/18/2019. but no one wants that for me. My boyfriend says I should abort it. I cry at every baby shower/kids birthday party I go to, in secret of course. Best of luck! My daughter was only 800g when she was born, stayed in NICU for 3 month. The clinic I went to was great! I have a lovely 5 year old sweets, a better partner that would totally support me should this happen again..nope. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. A young woman writes an open letter to the child she is about to abort and posts it online.. I pray God gives me another chance and send him back to me one day. Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. I told him to not come at all and I would be fine. At times I couldnt walk, couldnt eat, loss 9 pounds in one week, shortness of breath and felt like I was having a heart attack. I can identify , however the thought of another pregnancy scared me.. so I never wanted another child.. after this..This was 28 years later, I am in the same boat currently. 4. Like you, I was afraid and let fear took over my life. An Honest Letter About Abortion. It will be 8 years since my abortion in July and I still think about it every day. Helton-Haynes, a nurse by training, said in a phone interview the 2019 law was intended to protect both the mother and the baby. I want the baby, and he says not yet. My boyfriend is full of regret and wishes he wouldnt have said hurtful things. If your willing to share that is. It all means the same thing. You deserve the acceptance and tolerance of a choice that is yours and yours only. Hello Mommy, this is me, your baby- We wouldnt. The abortionist, he explains, after draining the uterus of the amniotic fluid that was protecting the child, inserts a claw-like instrument into the womb. I know a lot of people do this to help them grieve for their unborn babies. After a further 2 weeks things started to settle down. I still wonder if o made the right decision. But deep down I know I might regret it if I abort it. So please mommy, don't let me down. By Ronald Doe. I also feel like taking that risk, that my baby is worth the sacrifice. Don't listen to the voices saying it'll be easier when I'm gone. It helps to know I am not alone so thank you. I already have a 1 yr old but im 5 months. Mom's Letter to Baby During Pregnancy A Letter to My Unborn Baby: Here's What I Promise You September 25, 2017 by Laura Marie Meyers Dear Baby, There are still a few months until we. He tosses me the plastic bag with my burrito and chips (along with several containers of salsa that I didnt ask for but he knows me well enough to bring them anyway), and asks, with little emotion, Whats wrong? I sit down and ask him to sit too, and he does so, across the room. That is my "right." When we want our baby in womb then it is a baby. Love to each of you xxxxxxxxx. I am in the middle of mine as I type this. I think about you so often and wish so badly I could turn back time. Mark Ruffalo spoke out on reproductive rights this weekend, penning a letter in support of a woman's right to choose. This experience has done extraordinary things to me so far i have softened and really felt into my feminine. Realizing it is her choice and respecting her decision has been rough but weve grown these past few weeks. Im 9 weeks, and he pretends like it does not exist. Im balling my eyes out googling help topics because I miss her so much. I was so lonely and had nobody to talk to, man I really thought I was gonna go crazy when we took the break. I really commend you Shawn. My boyfriend has two children ages 18 and 13. He doesnt want to start over and says that we are too old. I felt like he had to know it is his right to know. It always feels unfair that the times I get pregnant, I had to terminate the pregnancy. I still wonder what if. Marni Fults. Youre still with me, and Im grateful for that too. A woman claiming to be pregnant has written an open letter to the "Little Thing" she'll never meet. I felt you crying when you went to the doctor. We had to open up the conversation we thought was closed and re-examine our marriage and family. Did you end up keeping your baby ? They are a group of loving people who have been in your position. This is not a fictional story. Must be awful. I go to sleep the same way I have every night since I found out about you: heartbroken and tearful. I agree about age being just a number but my husband is 50 and not interested in doing this again. He is the reason why I feel so motivated now, and although its not easy I wouldnt trade him for anything in the world. I was able to get another teaching job back in our home state, and have been teaching for years. Seven months latter she wrote this letter to a priest. Im up and down about it all. It is killing me to know she is alive now and she wont be in a few days. Sharla Ynostrosa | 01/11/2021. Hi there reading this story made me cry so bad We just signed the lease on our apartment and we were planning a trip to Italy for next summer. Im going to mourn the abortion. I have been sleeping with a guy unprotected for a year now last month I got pregnant and I had a miscarriage I never told him because we are not together.